Jordan...Lil.Ludda;;we love you and miss you SO much. it's been a year since you've been gone. i can tell mikey mike, ross, gabe, and taylor all miss you because baby, you were the best. best friend, best guy, and one of the best people ever. you changed everyone's lives you came across. and we thank you. it was your time, and our time will come one day too. i just can't wait to get up to heaven and finally see you again. we love you sweetbuns. ;]
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and i can't wait to finally see you again...i have a feeling i'll be seeing you soon.. sooner than expected.
gah....these last couple of days have been so hard! i miss you soooo much! things are just getting worse day by day! i'm so stupid! i keep doing things i shouldnt. i keep telling people things that i should just keep to myself! i wish i would've gone up w/you at times like these! gah...everything's just sooo messed up down here! i need you, i need your guidance, i need your advice! PLEASE HELP ME J!
i love you! you'll always be a part of my heart! Jessica Leigh
wow.. words can not describe how much i miss youu <3 these past few weeks have been tough.. i just miss you soo muchh and i just cant bare the pain anymore!! you meant the world to me.. and now its just sooo hardd to believe you are gone.. wow... i love you ludda <33 i made this dealy for you <3
it has been a while since i last wrote in here. but you know that doesnt mean i havent thought about you. i think about you all the time. you've taught me so much, and i know i've already told you this in letters i write you. but iono...i just thought i'd drop by to say "I LOVE YOU!" and "I MISS YOU". i really do. i know that i will never forget you. i've matured so much ever since you left this world, and i know that sounds really bad. but it's true. like now...everytime i feel bad...or i get into a fight w/someone. i stop and tell myself..."It's not even worth it!"...and somehow my anger and frustration go away. i'm always advising my friends to "LIVE LIFE TO JORDAN'S EXTREME". at first they used to look at me like "Who in the world is Jordan?!?" but now...they've learned. and they just breathe in and repeat what i say. so it's pretty cool. you never met my friends down here...yet you're still impacting people's lives. so yea. welp bebe- i really dont wanna get all teary eyed, so i think i'm gonna go. i love you and miss you dearly. thank you for everything you did and are still doing for me. i love you with all my heart! *muah*
So it looks like I will be joining you soon. See, I'm sick, for real sick...and there really isn't anything that can be done....It's hard for me to believe , but I've accepted it. None of my friends know, because i dont want them to. Not yet anyways. I will be honest, I'm scared.... but not of dying....really it's just of...not living. Past few weeks, all I can think is "Live to the Extreme" and that is what I'm trying to do. No, I'm not as important as you, and people definetely won't treat my death like yours....But that's okay because I don't deserve it. I don't know how much time I have...and I really don't want to know.... I really just want to put on my brave face and live my life, as short as it might be. I guess all my dreams will never come true.... but Heaven is more than I can imagine. That is actually the song I listen to most, right now, "I can only imagine"... So in my life, I havn't accomplished much and I don't think I've made an impact like you... But you've been my hero since the day i met you. And I figure since you already know what it's like to be in heaven, and to stand face to face with God, that you will understand, and i can talk to you, even if you can't talk back... I know you can hear me. I talk to your mom a lot, and she's a lot of help! But I don't want my parents to go through what she is!!! At least they know, and at least they will expect it...your mom never saw it coming. So maybe in my case it's different. I know what is ahead of me. I just can't imagine what happens afterward.
